birthdays

we don't celebrate birthdays anymore do we?

yes, its a 'WE'...

JEDSXY?? JEDSY??....

J is like ...

its like he is the heart...

no matter how long we've not seen each other, he makes me feel comfortable talking to him, no stress no secrets... he's like family... that's why we always bicker... he calls me only in times of need... is that good or bad? oh well... its ok... that's what friends are for...

D is gay...

i mean he's a happy and easy going person... like a brother....

he does things for you.... real helpful and nice... the reason why he hurt so easily...

but he hide things... he doesnt share emotions unless asked... he wants me to write a compo about him... but what to? hah... he's a damn stubborn person.... we're alike....

S is gay too!

he's busy now, with school stuff... i'm proud of him, he dances well... he likes to stalk my sister because he lives just across the road from my house...

we used to go to ntuc nearby and i always treated him 'lychee tongue'...its an icecream that looks like a tongue...

he doesn't hang it on his mouth on how important we are.... neither did he once said that... but i always felt that we meant something to him...

Y is sweet...

the person that showered most care...

we dislike each other at first.. then became friends....

we sat beside each other in secondary school days..

there seems to be so much to talk about everyday...

thinking of what we've been through

its like a strong bond created...

but it feels far sometimes....though you know that she'll always be there...

X is invisible

no longer there...

someone that matters so much, yet is a stranger...

if i were to see him on the street one day,

i wont call out to him, i dont know how...

not that i'm petty that he rejected our outings

but he rejected us...

everyone has differences.. and there's some differences that you are bound to not like...
effort's made and this is who we are....

but you just don't bother...

E is emotional...

she thinks alot...

but that's because it meant something to her

if not she wouldn't give a damn

she gets attached to something easily...
people come and go, she cannot accept that

that's why she's cold now.... so that she won't get addicted so easily......

it was hard for her to move on at first...

so hard... she hated going to new school and she swears that she won't wanna make anymore friends so there's no parting...but until she met some nice peeps in poly of course....

so, was it hard for you?

the past

happy birthday X

seem

people always say that we shouldn't judge a book by its cover
but whether they want to even start reading you or not,
its your first impression that matters.

first impression includes how you smell, look, talk and act.

ill-starred

guess its stomach flu AGAIN!!!
again and again and again and again~
its so common nowadays
and that explains why i'm getting it for the 2nd time in like a month or less....

head's heavy body's burning
burning and sweating
sweating yet cold
cold and hungry
hungry but not feel like eating
eat and the stomach start growling
and all the joints feel like breaking...

that's how it feels like or at least its how i felt... and you just have to keep going to the toilet that you feel like you might as well stay there the whole day...
worst of all its contagious.....ARGH......

Best of luck everyone... this virus is all around...

BTW.. derald's back in Singapore after attachment in China.. JEDSY shall meet up soon..=D

ridicule

there's this weird guy on msn.. shall name him 'some nutcase'
words in brackets are my thoughts.. it'll be too mean if i wrote them...=D


some nutcase: wad's ur number ah??

emileen: uh y?

some nutcase: i change no.. forgotten urs ma...

emileen: oh.. no worries... you didnt forget mine.. you didnt have it in the first place..

some nutcase: juz for catch up for u for dinner via sms. seem lik u'r unoccupied for the next sch reopen

emileen: (the english is the POWDERFUL..... and DINNER VIA SMS huh... how? eat the text???) lol.. catch up? (what to catch when i don't even know you?!) haha... even if i'm unoccupied doesn't mean i have to go for dinner with you.....

some nutcase: wow.. lik dat mehzz... i'm dishearted.. sob

emileen: lol.. is that my prob? i dont even know you... you're not even in my contact list..

i don't mean to be mean and i know karma's gonna strike me but i've really got no patient for people like this...

disenthrall

If someone wants to be a part of your life,

they'll make an effort to be in it.

So don't bother reserving a space in your heart

for someone who doesn't make an effort to stay.

(of course this wasn't written by me, i just found it by ACCIDENT)

YOU!
this is SO for you... or rather for me to tell you...
it was just me all these while.. just friendship to me.. but not you!
i'm always making the effort for me to be in your heart and for you to be in my heart...
its so difficult for me to lie to myself that we're still friends when we've not seen each other for like what..... 11months?1 whole year?
its time for me to free myself from the delusions that we're still friends...
i'm too tired...

stupefy

i was shocked by my own blog music because it was so loud that i jumped so hard from my seat... HAHA...

breathe

Decided to join the rest at bedok on the 15th and headed to ECP!!! it was a freaking hot day and there's nothing much to do. So we started BBQing (i was kind enough to offer eye power^^)and riding bicycles around...Before we realise, it was already too late for me to go home...so.... i gave myself an excuse to stay over with all the kind souls offering me their clothes...... went to public toilet for a shower past midnight. Scary but shiok. The force of the water is superb that it feels like someone slapping you hard on your face when u try to wash them. The cold sea breeze makes it even BETTER. Cycled to mac and chilled till 4am.......... had breakfast and chilled at the beach while waiting for sun rise........ended up looking like a zombie... really nothing much to do so we left at around 9am with a little of my madness........


its been a while since i've done something like that with fun people.. gave me some fresh mind after all the pollution thats killing me all these while.......

FIRST^^

Just trying out........=]