people who are close to me, would know about this story.
when my mum was pregnant with me, everyone thought it should be, must be, have to be a boy. because I've already got 2 sisters above me. so on the day my mum went to have her ultra scan, my dad told my sisters " if this is a boy, i shall bring you girls for a feast". my mum just smiled and thought that no matter what the result is, we shall go for a feast.
and when they knew i was a girl......
straight home
no feast
my grandma was so unhappy i was a girl
my mum was so upset with their reactions
my birth date was so near my aunt's wedding. no one dared to come and visit me and my mum in the hospital. because Chinese believe these things shouldn't clash. my mum told me while others have family gathered around their bed, there was only just me and her. my dad didn't come, because he choose to attend her beloved sister's, my aunt's wedding.
it was such a sad thing. how would you feel if your mum told you that you were born in a situation like this? i feel like i was "extra". like i shouldn't be here.
all these years, i grew up in my mother's care. although i wasn't her favorite, she still loves me, i believe. maybe because she suffered having me, that's why i was her least favorite. though she thinks I'm the stupidest among her four daughters, i did my best to do you proud, it was my best, so please don't look down on me, for i did it to make you proud.
everytime i say this, it would make me wanna cry.
when my mum was pregnant with me, everyone thought it should be, must be, have to be a boy. because I've already got 2 sisters above me. so on the day my mum went to have her ultra scan, my dad told my sisters " if this is a boy, i shall bring you girls for a feast". my mum just smiled and thought that no matter what the result is, we shall go for a feast.
and when they knew i was a girl......
straight home
no feast
my grandma was so unhappy i was a girl
my mum was so upset with their reactions
my birth date was so near my aunt's wedding. no one dared to come and visit me and my mum in the hospital. because Chinese believe these things shouldn't clash. my mum told me while others have family gathered around their bed, there was only just me and her. my dad didn't come, because he choose to attend her beloved sister's, my aunt's wedding.
it was such a sad thing. how would you feel if your mum told you that you were born in a situation like this? i feel like i was "extra". like i shouldn't be here.
all these years, i grew up in my mother's care. although i wasn't her favorite, she still loves me, i believe. maybe because she suffered having me, that's why i was her least favorite. though she thinks I'm the stupidest among her four daughters, i did my best to do you proud, it was my best, so please don't look down on me, for i did it to make you proud.
everytime i say this, it would make me wanna cry.
thanks to you, there's me.
i hate you.
you only have yourself in mind
you are an unlucky shit and you will never win any money from your stupid lottery.
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