jolyn

dont wanna borrow me the ear piece right?!
anyway its not even yours
if i ever help you or give you songs again
i'll be the dog...
*&%# &*% $@#%#

REPUGNANCE

for separation
i've had it once, leaving secondary for poly life was one of the most atrocious things in my list, worst feeling ever, feeling lost and upset knowing that no matter how often we try to meet, it'll never be the same. And 2 months away from now, i'm gonna feel like that again. i've said to myself that i'll try not to be close to new friends so i won't feel sad for separation but here i am, before the time has even reached, i'm already defeated by this feeling and i know i'm gonna miss my poly friends. how is it gonna be like on grad day?!! aww man... this sucks.....

another thing that sucks is JACKIE asking me out just because nobody's free for him or wants to accompany him. you know i will be easily contented when you say you thought of me so you asked me out. but i'm not a 3 yr old child ok, i'll get pissed too! SO YOU JUST SHOP ON DAYS WHEN YOUR HORSE GRAIN IS FREE FOR YOU LA OK!!! =(

P.S. do what makes you happy, girl.

YESTERDAY

a day at grandparents' home =D
went for a walk after that.. it seems like a heritage tour... haha...

endeavor

i planted the chilli seeds so a plant could grow, and my effort paid off with the harvest=D there's more to come!

DONE

with proj. the usual no sleep.. haha
presentation was alright... not much mean comments but i'm afraid its because the work simply sucks so they didn't wanna comment.
talking bout being mean, no one else can beat allan in it... its in his blood i guess... lol...
anyway, tomorrow is the last day of sch before holiday...
last holiday as a student in my life..
and, its time for my halu boy to visit the vet=)
on the other hand, JJ please cheer up, i guess i could understand how u felt =(

LIGHT

finally done with my proj...
photoshop is killer
i'm so cold and hungry..
like so empty and i feel like vomiting...

HELP!

I'm not late for school today!!! so I spent the whole day in school figuring out my ramp and it ended up stupid anyway. I was trying to use photoshop to colour my plan from 9PM till now and I still cant figure out how to do, even the basic stuff I've to ask Allan... I've done it before but I forgot how to now! Felt really stupid so I decided to go and bang my head T.T so upset with myself... Henry offered to teach me but I guess I'll forget right after he taught me...SIGH~ everyone is sooooo busy, I feel chagrin to ask them. SOMEONE PLEASE SEE THIS POST AND HELP ME WHEN YOU'RE FREE! I'll treat you my early christmas present, cadbury's popping candy from Wendy(thanks for it!)

KOK HUA BIN

stole my slippers from underneath the table
damn...

PLEASE!

stop coming to my house like every alternate day
stop using the desktop and laptop like you owned it
stop eating so loud like a fucking pig
stop giving me bullshit and retarded excuses when i ask you to shut your pig mouth when eating
stop typing the keyborad so hard
stop behaving like a wimp, have some pride
stop bullying my Jolyn cause she's a girl after all, i dare you to disturb me
stop taking out your wallet in a ultra slow speed as if its glued into your pocket
stop opening the drawer like you have your stuff inside
stop touching shirlin's itouch
stop attempting to plug my hard disk back to the com when i just removed it, you can't afford the content if you spoil my hard disk and i never say i wanna lent it to you

i never hate you nor do i like you, PLEASE find a place to date.
you are intruding my family and my personal life and you're not really welcomed
i really feel like stabbing you in the stomach or use a brick to smash your head sometimes

NEW MOON!!!

new moon totally rocks...
although what i imagined while reading the book were different from the movie...
its still good...
jake is new love♡...
totally sexy!!!
now i know why all the guys don't wanna watch this show...

love

YEA YEA YEA..new moon sneak preview tomorrow...
haven book tickets yet... DIE!
feeling so unwell now and my autocad plan is not even out...

anyway, sunset ytd was beautiful...

yea

it has been raining and i liked it...
but
my plants need sunlight....
it would be good if it rains every evening
when the sun is down... heeee
new moon is out in the US but not here
shall resist from watching it online...
wait till 3rd Dec

ROCKS!!!

YES AH!!! 2PM is BACK!!!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

emo shit

because its deep so it bleeds
and because it bleeds,
there bound to be scars

tonight

as i was walking home, my mind went wandering
so much thoughts yet it felt so empty
the streets are so noisy yet my space is in silence.
guess i was just tired for not sleeping in 39hrs...

foregoing

so the happenings for the past few days were pretty bizarre.

first i got a l4d dream where the characters involve me, shihui, allan, cecilia, a boomer, a hunter, a handsome angmoh and alot of random people.

then my apple pie just slip and drop onto the floor but i just picked it up to eat anyway and i realise there isnt any apple in it because it burst after the impact of flying to the ground. so as i was eating the apple keep dropping off.

then as i was eating subway, a piece of my turkey breast flew out and dropped onto the floor but according to the usual emileen, she will pick it up to eat.

so the past few days involved pure stupidity and haplessness.

THE END=D

proj

history of site
site analysis
initial responses, at least 3 for each problem found
case study
model

left 5 days
GG
i have to work hard...
previous proj i got D, D+, D
ta ma de

values? principles?

common sense:
when someone took the other person's
belongings without permission
what is it called?

its STEALING

you know your daughters fairly well
the first is easy going. whatever the other sisters want to borrow, its an 'okay'
but its a different case for the second one because she needs to consider long and it may end up 'not okay' still
and the third one, as long as you ask permission, its an 'okay' too
the fourth, gets whatever she wants without bothering to ask because there's a mum to back her up
that's because you play favourism
i'm grown up and used to the biasness so i wouldn't care less bout this.

but you're teaching the fourth one the wrong value,
a value that you're gonna regret.

its not how much that object is worth.
i can understand if you don't have it and really need it
but if you already have it, why wanna take other person's?
even if its just clothes, taking it without permission and keeping it behind her back is deceiving
you deceive your own family, why?
say i'm a busybody or whatever, i don't care. if not you can always decieve me too. if i dont know, i won't talk so much about this.
so its clothes this time, what about money next time? taking money without permission? even if you really needed it, its still wrong right?
you taught me what's right and you do the opposite.

all is bullshit.

life

is a piece of shit sometimes
when people don't understand you and
don't know how it feels like to be in others' shoes.

don't fucking make assumptions if
you don't know anything at all

if you're born rich, congrats.
if you're not, get ready to be in a world of fucking realities.

wonted

because during the holidays sleeping time is 3-5am
so getting up early for school is quite a problem...
here's some of the school's happenings:
to give 100 bucks for some grad exhibition
L4D
L4D
site walk
site analysis
L4D
and L4D
die.... never do work..

anyway... after some time and effort.. there's something new to my pot of pomegranate
fruit or what? but i don't see any flower in the beginning.
PS. its so difficult to choose, jon! KIM TAE WOO and NICHKHUN are both too cute, i'll take both =D

dread

school is gonna reopen tomorrow...
sigh..
its gonna be the last few months of my life as a student, then i'm gonna step into the society
and DIE!!!

labyrinthine

i always wonder how my brain works
thinking of so many things at a time
so many
its so complicated like a messed up puzzle
i wanted to say
but i dont know where to start
its all in pieces
its those little things that multiply
i cant stand it when people let their emotions control them
but i'm under control too
hah...

WHY?!

jon thinks i'm mad when

i say:
Nichkhun is idol
KimTaeWoo is the kind i would like in real life
but i like nichkhun best.

Haha... is there anything wrong?
then

@L says:
u gt bad taste =X
i am better XD

yea right, you got problem in your head, @L

death

ytd morning i heard gee gee(my sister's guinea pig) 'squick' as usual and i couldn't care less because he wasnt my priority.....

i brought halu down for a walk during late evening and while waiting for the lift to get back home, sheena and shirlin came down with gee gee in his home and straight away i knew what happened...

sorry

auntie lucy

haha... this is cool..

wow #2

i knew something was going on since shou suddenly asked if i'm home or not... but i cant be sure of it so i didnt prepare myself and i look like crap....
and so.....

thanks dearest... its really a good feeling...

and besides the cake that they've bought, sheena bought another one..

orea cheese cake..then there were subway from wendy and mee sua from mummy...its a foodful birthday and i will become even fatter~

once again, thanks to those who wished me... including derald who made a call LATE!
and renxin who wished me through shou=D

i'm damn freaking 20 now!

creations

mon is a proud and arrogant girl, wear specs
tues is a shy girl
wed is ah beng girl
thur always cry
fri is the girl with long hair
sat is fat fat one
sun is the siao zhar bor..

ok lame...

wow

so in the excuse of bringing rufers to my home with chevy today (or rather yesterday the 7th), shihui came with an awesome surprise. not that she threw a party or invited hundreds of people, she came to deliver her friendship to me... not that i wasn't touched, i'm just a person without much expression, but deep down i really appreciate what you did for me... thanks, sweetest!

theres flowers and that book,

its the sweetest thing ever...tulips<3

nice cupcakes and a blurred pic of us

hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.....

thanks shi, for always making me feel important...

also to mention nice people like

W hasaeyo for the korean utensils

Big Sis for the bag

Cecilia for the card

Jackie for being the first to sms me the bastard that made me smile just like that

and many others who flooded my phone as soon as it is 12am with great wishes

all is appreciated....i'll smile to sleep now though i hate to be 20... =D

impetuosity

got a new phone because my old one is dead... or almost dead...

everything was done in a rush and the damnedest part is

i ended up with a BABY PINK phone....

whatever.....

pictures for ytd....

cloudy with a chance of meatball
kenny rogers

torpidity

had been inactive for the holidays...
out of 10 days, i'm home for maybe 9?
does watering plants at the corridor counts?lol
and like FINALLY i went out today, but it was a hot and humdrum day...
did lots of shopping after visiting grandparents, but none is mine!!! at least i got a 30bucks voucher though =D
going out with polymates tmr.. ok, its later....

birthdays

we don't celebrate birthdays anymore do we?

yes, its a 'WE'...

JEDSXY?? JEDSY??....

J is like ...

its like he is the heart...

no matter how long we've not seen each other, he makes me feel comfortable talking to him, no stress no secrets... he's like family... that's why we always bicker... he calls me only in times of need... is that good or bad? oh well... its ok... that's what friends are for...

D is gay...

i mean he's a happy and easy going person... like a brother....

he does things for you.... real helpful and nice... the reason why he hurt so easily...

but he hide things... he doesnt share emotions unless asked... he wants me to write a compo about him... but what to? hah... he's a damn stubborn person.... we're alike....

S is gay too!

he's busy now, with school stuff... i'm proud of him, he dances well... he likes to stalk my sister because he lives just across the road from my house...

we used to go to ntuc nearby and i always treated him 'lychee tongue'...its an icecream that looks like a tongue...

he doesn't hang it on his mouth on how important we are.... neither did he once said that... but i always felt that we meant something to him...

Y is sweet...

the person that showered most care...

we dislike each other at first.. then became friends....

we sat beside each other in secondary school days..

there seems to be so much to talk about everyday...

thinking of what we've been through

its like a strong bond created...

but it feels far sometimes....though you know that she'll always be there...

X is invisible

no longer there...

someone that matters so much, yet is a stranger...

if i were to see him on the street one day,

i wont call out to him, i dont know how...

not that i'm petty that he rejected our outings

but he rejected us...

everyone has differences.. and there's some differences that you are bound to not like...
effort's made and this is who we are....

but you just don't bother...

E is emotional...

she thinks alot...

but that's because it meant something to her

if not she wouldn't give a damn

she gets attached to something easily...
people come and go, she cannot accept that

that's why she's cold now.... so that she won't get addicted so easily......

it was hard for her to move on at first...

so hard... she hated going to new school and she swears that she won't wanna make anymore friends so there's no parting...but until she met some nice peeps in poly of course....

so, was it hard for you?

the past

happy birthday X

seem

people always say that we shouldn't judge a book by its cover
but whether they want to even start reading you or not,
its your first impression that matters.

first impression includes how you smell, look, talk and act.

ill-starred

guess its stomach flu AGAIN!!!
again and again and again and again~
its so common nowadays
and that explains why i'm getting it for the 2nd time in like a month or less....

head's heavy body's burning
burning and sweating
sweating yet cold
cold and hungry
hungry but not feel like eating
eat and the stomach start growling
and all the joints feel like breaking...

that's how it feels like or at least its how i felt... and you just have to keep going to the toilet that you feel like you might as well stay there the whole day...
worst of all its contagious.....ARGH......

Best of luck everyone... this virus is all around...

BTW.. derald's back in Singapore after attachment in China.. JEDSY shall meet up soon..=D

ridicule

there's this weird guy on msn.. shall name him 'some nutcase'
words in brackets are my thoughts.. it'll be too mean if i wrote them...=D


some nutcase: wad's ur number ah??

emileen: uh y?

some nutcase: i change no.. forgotten urs ma...

emileen: oh.. no worries... you didnt forget mine.. you didnt have it in the first place..

some nutcase: juz for catch up for u for dinner via sms. seem lik u'r unoccupied for the next sch reopen

emileen: (the english is the POWDERFUL..... and DINNER VIA SMS huh... how? eat the text???) lol.. catch up? (what to catch when i don't even know you?!) haha... even if i'm unoccupied doesn't mean i have to go for dinner with you.....

some nutcase: wow.. lik dat mehzz... i'm dishearted.. sob

emileen: lol.. is that my prob? i dont even know you... you're not even in my contact list..

i don't mean to be mean and i know karma's gonna strike me but i've really got no patient for people like this...

disenthrall

If someone wants to be a part of your life,

they'll make an effort to be in it.

So don't bother reserving a space in your heart

for someone who doesn't make an effort to stay.

(of course this wasn't written by me, i just found it by ACCIDENT)

YOU!
this is SO for you... or rather for me to tell you...
it was just me all these while.. just friendship to me.. but not you!
i'm always making the effort for me to be in your heart and for you to be in my heart...
its so difficult for me to lie to myself that we're still friends when we've not seen each other for like what..... 11months?1 whole year?
its time for me to free myself from the delusions that we're still friends...
i'm too tired...

stupefy

i was shocked by my own blog music because it was so loud that i jumped so hard from my seat... HAHA...

breathe

Decided to join the rest at bedok on the 15th and headed to ECP!!! it was a freaking hot day and there's nothing much to do. So we started BBQing (i was kind enough to offer eye power^^)and riding bicycles around...Before we realise, it was already too late for me to go home...so.... i gave myself an excuse to stay over with all the kind souls offering me their clothes...... went to public toilet for a shower past midnight. Scary but shiok. The force of the water is superb that it feels like someone slapping you hard on your face when u try to wash them. The cold sea breeze makes it even BETTER. Cycled to mac and chilled till 4am.......... had breakfast and chilled at the beach while waiting for sun rise........ended up looking like a zombie... really nothing much to do so we left at around 9am with a little of my madness........


its been a while since i've done something like that with fun people.. gave me some fresh mind after all the pollution thats killing me all these while.......

FIRST^^

Just trying out........=]